Been gone awhile.........

And yes, it's EXACTLY for the reason you think, among others.

I've been gone from blogging for a little over a month and in that month I've gained about 12 pounds. Sad, so sad that I do this to myself.

BUT

Today is a new day and I'm going to start counting my points again and get serious about weight watchers again. Being home everyday is HARD. I can't seem to stay out of the fridge! But, I'm starting a new job today and I think now that I'll be working again, the weight loss will return. I've ALWAYS done better at losing weight when I have to go to work 8 hours a day.

I'm going to do some editing/updating on my page later today so that everything is accurate, but right now I'm getting ready for work and don't have time. I also plan on getting back to the Healthy You Challenge tomorrow. Look for some changes from me later today.

Trish

HYC - Umemployment, Stress and Bad Eating

Ok, this is probably going to be a whiny post so if you want to skip it I understand.

I am now officially unemployed. I quit my job last Friday due to a few reasons that I won't go into here, it was just time for me to quit. I worked there for a little over 13 years. This is the first time in my adult life that I have not had a job, it's scary to say the least. I have started looking already, mostly just sending my resume to potiential employers through the job sites like careerbuilder and monster. I also mailed out one to a company yesterday. I really want to find something in the next two to three weeks, but I don't want to take just anything, I want to find something that I'll like, we shall see.

I had my weigh in yesterday, I gained 2.2 pounds, but considering my stress level that's not two bad. I think the gain is mostly from me drinking alcohol on two different days last week. I almost never drink. I'm stuggling this week to so far as well, I just seem to have an "I don't care" attitude and I really want to snap out of it. Hopefully just posting here on my blog will help. I need to catch up reading blogs as well. Well, that's it for me. I'm still here, not 100% on plan, but not bingeing and eating everything in sight either.

I hope you all are having a great week.

Why is this so hard?

Why is losing weight so hard? Is it just me? I did so good the first 3 months that I was doing this and then something changed. I don't know what it is/was. My pants started fitting better, I looked a bit better, not as much like a stuffed sausage in my clothes, but yet over the past two months I've lost less than 5 pounds.

One would think that since I like the feeling of losing weight, since I like that fact that my clothes fit me better that losing weight would be something that I would want to keep doing, something that I would want to try harder to achieve, but that's just not happening.

It seems like the farther along I get into my lifestyle change, the more I want to go back to my old ways. The more I want to eat at McDonald's, eat that butter pecan ice cream, drink sweetened tea instead of diet soda or water. Shouldn't the opposite be happening? Shouldn't I love the weight loss so much that I want to drink water, exercise, and eat healthier foods instead of fast food crap?

I do eat better now than I did 5 months ago, I do chose better foods and I do exercise a little more but it's not enough. I must just be lazy, because I know exactly what it takes to make this weight start coming off again, but yet here I sit, doing the bare minimum to get it off. Sure, I haven't gained it all back and I'm thankful that I haven't let it get that far, but I just don't know what I can do to "make" myself get back to where I was 2 months ago. Consistently losing each week, and wanting to do what it takes to achieve that. Lately I'll do good 3/4 days out of 7 and then just hope that I lose a pound or two on my weigh in day.

I'm just in a funk and I don't know how to get out of it, and it's just not losing weight, I feel like my life is in a funk. I want to turn things around in my personal life, I'm usually a happy go lucky kind of person who doesn't let things get her down, but lately I've been the opposite. I just want to pull myself out of my funk, start losing weight again and be as happy of a person as possible.

I'm just not sure how to do that right now.

HYC - Weigh in

I just got back from my Weight Watchers meeting, I lost 1.8 pounds. That's awesome, now if only I could do at least that every week I'd be a happy camper. I'm still having a heck of a time making myself exercise, i'm doing it about twice a week, better than nothing, but still. I don't have alot to share, I'm still here, still trying to lose weight.

I hope you all are doing great!

Plugging Along

This week is going pretty good. Nothing major to report good or bad. I did eat a few too many points yesterday, I got an attack of the munchies late last night and ate some potato chips so I'm over by 12 points for yesterday. That's ok though, that's the first time I've used any weekly flex points. I need to try to not use anymore though. I also need to try to get in another walk today, but not sure if that's going to happen today.

Well that's it from me, I'll update again on Monday. I hope everyone is having a great on-plan week.

Healthly You Check in.

Last week was crappy too, but I'm not going to dwell on it. I'm off to my Weight Watchers meeting in a few minutes to get my "damage total", but no matter what it amounts too, I will lose it.

All I can do is keep trying, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.

**Looking back over my posts for the last 2 months I've been in a holding pattern. I've been falling off the wagon on a regular basis and "starting over". I've been to this place before in the past and I eventually just gave up. I can't give up this time, I have to keep trying.**

**Ok, so the damage isn't that bad. I actually lost 5 pounds this past week that leaves me up 1.4 pounds from my lowest weight on 07/07/08. I think I stand a good chance to lose that 1.4 this week plus some! Maybe I'll get that 50 pounds lost bling soon!**

Shameful Week

Last week was a horrible horrible week, other than Monday (my birthday). I threw in the towel, ate some really bad things and gained 5.8 pounds. Why I want to eat when things go in the toilet I don't know, but that's exactly what I did. I was extremely stressed at work and then my dog ran away (still gone) not to mention a few other personal issues. I used those things as excuses to eat whatever I wanted, and it did make me feel better, for about 10 minutes.

Anyway, this is a new week and I'm turning things around.

Updated Bling

I wanted to wait until I reached that 50 pounds lost mark to update my HYC bling, but since I'm feeling a little discouraged with yesterday's weigh in I decided to update it today. Maybe seeing that 45 pound lost badge will make me want the 50 pounds lost badge even more.

I think I'm going to try to eat more core foods this week and see how that goes, I'm thinking I might switch altogether in a few weeks if I can figure it all out and see if I can actually do it. I just need something to help give me a boost. This losing only 6 pounds in almost 2 months is killing me. If I weighed less I don't think it would be that big of a deal but at 369 pounds it shouldn't take me 2 months to lose that, heck I've lost more than that in 1 WEEK before. I know I'm not doing everything right though and I need to buckle down and go by the book. I also know I need to exercise more than twice a week. I need to STOP using my flex points, I know some people need to use them, but I'm not one of them. It seems like everytime I even use some of them I have a gain. I also need to abide by the 8 healthy guidelines, I rarely get in 5 fruits/veggies and rarely the oil. I do pretty good on the dairy and the water though.

Yesterday was kind of a spluge day since it was my birthday, that will probably affect my next weigh in but after that I really hope that I can get some losses going!

Angry

I hate it when you do everything right and have a gain. I can understand the weeks where I mess up, don't count points or whatever and then post a gain, at least on those weeks I know WHY I gained. I gained this week, 0.6 pounds. I know it's not much, but I did everything right last week. I exercised (only 2 times, but still!), I stayed within my daily points on most days last week and on the days that I went over it was only by a few. I only used 11 of my flex points last week. I "should" have had a loss.

I'm just mad, it's taken me 2 months to lose 6 pounds. I want, I need it to go a little faster than that! I'm not giving up or anything, but this weigh in has me pissed off! Whatever. I'm going to lose a few pounds by next Monday or die trying!

Going Good

This week is going pretty good. I should have another loss come Monday. Which is also my 30th birthday **sigh**. I don't want to turn 30! But it'll be here Monday so I'll just have to deal with it. The thing that REALLY sucks is that my driver's license expires Monday too, so I'll have to go the the DMV on my birthday AND to renew my license I have to retake the written driving test (due to a few points on my license). How much does that SUCK!

The plan for my birthday is to go out to dinner somewhere. It will be a nice sit down type resturant and not fast food so this will not affect my "No fast food" challenge. I haven't had fast food for 11 days and it feels good to say that, because I'm such a fast food junkie! The plan is to go the entire month of July with no fast food and then try to continue that. The more days I go without it, the easier it is.